The Trolls Wars

The Vulnerable Author

When I decided to self-publish I felt the excitement of holding that very first book in my hand.  It was real, and really happening.  It was much like giving birth when you’re amazed something you’ve known to happen to others could actually happen to you.  It wasn’t just a dream anymore.

The awe-struck feeling didn’t last long enough before another feeling slowly crept in.  It was the awareness that others would now know who you are and what you had done.  That set in a little fear of others judging you based on the work you did.  What if no one liked it?  What if it was really bad and only you thought it was good?  The nagging inner voice of doubt has struck.

I begged for others whom I trusted to read my work and assure me I hadn’t failed in my attempt.  It’s taken two years and more unresponsive or noncommittal friends and family than genuinely responsive, then a few very good reviews before the slow process of believing in myself began.  Even though I now accept I can write well and many will like it, the occasional nagging inner voice of doubt lingers.  I wonder if its good enough?  I think it will be a continuous up and down battle to close off that voice with each new publication.

As more and more strangers report good things it gets easier, but it’s not like the eleven books, with a total of seventeen publications (some just ebooks), in two years brought in a flood of fans.  At least not ones who actually buy the books.  Few Indie authors experience that.  It’s the gifts and free giveaways that you hope will feed your doubts with good reviews, but never materialize that really disappoint.  We are such a vulnerable lot, and very egocentric when it comes to these feelings.

We support each other with likes and votes and sharing posts, with occasional purchases, and sometimes reviews, but it’s still a difficult road to travel down.  We’re mostly alone.  It’s the nature of our craft.  Continuing to immerse ourselves in imaginary places with imaginary people doing imaginary things keeps us busy.  If we stay busy maybe the fear won’t come, maybe the doubt will stay away and maybe even a few books will sell.  Of those maybe a few reviews will materialize to help erase any remaining doubt.

All of us go through this to some degree.  HERE is another blog with steps to follow to overcome some of these feelings of vulnerability and help you keep on keeping on so no one is shattered by disappointing comments or downright meanness.  Become strong because the naysayers are out there and when things begin to look good they could strike you down.  Be prepared.  Become strong.  Then it won’t matter if others don’t approve.  Enough will.


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The Bully Gene

I have just watched the National Geographic documentary, obtained through Netflix, titled The Search for the Ultimate Survivor: The 70025564Mystery of Us.  I watch a lot of documentaries in my quest for more knowledge of my world and the people in it, sometimes for research, sometimes just from curiosity or wanting more knowledge in an area of personal interest.  But, in this presentation there was one segment that was more outstanding than learning of all the humanoids once occupying our world from the deep time of our history to the more recent time of each one’s existence.  It was in reference to a gene for bullying.  Due to my past, and more recent experience with a certain group of bullies, and my psychological background desiring to understand what divides the different types of personalities, I found the comment of one scientist most compelling.

The ability we developed to make us most superior was the ability to move our tongues and mouth in unique expressions, which may be what led to language, but that ability gave us another advantage.  Primate researcher, Richard Wrangham, explained through his comparison between the behaviors of humans and chimpanzees.  Chimps have no way of controlling the bullies within their own communities, which have aggressive behavior from a hundred to a thousand times more than ours within our communities.  A few can dominate the many through sear force and are always threatening.  Within human society we are more often very nice to each other, even though between our societies we can be very aggressive since we fight wars.  Our tendency for war-like behavior, and our need for uprisings against oppressive governments aside, left for another discussion, within our own societies we are generally very peaceful.

Within every ape and human society there have been members who have always tried to bully others.  But with language, according to Wangham, the ability for the weak to team up against the bullies has turned the tables.  And we continue to team up against the bullies.  We don’t have an alpha male who bullies everyone, but a group of non-alpha individuals who bully the alpha, a coalition of the timids who team up against the bullies.  Over time, he says, this group of timids have hatched plots and actually killed off large numbers of the bullies.  That kind of killing has selected against the gene that makes individuals aggressive within groups.

Again, over time, language created societies that grew into groups which were peaceful among themselves because they weeded out the bullies.  This helped to eliminate the bully gene within society as our evolutionary development accelerated.  We became more cooperative, allowing us to build on each other’s inventions.  And we will never cease to come up with new ideas because our brains have developed, given us language, and the discerning ability to eliminate the bullies in our society.

With the diversity of humans over the last four million years, nature’s lab in human experiments is now closed.  We stand alone, and while luck played a role (we almost became extinct 80,000 years ago due to massive volcanism that changed the climate), it was also talent that contributed to our unique circumstances — we learned, we were smarter.  And we have ALL descended from the surviving 2,000 to 2,500 who survived  (yes, that small number) .

The advantage goes to the cooperative ape — us.  And as it has been said elsewhere, “There ain’t no stopping us now.”  So, for those bullies out there who persist, your time will end.  We will find a way to eliminate the bully gene further, probably by learning how to curb the cause of its continued behavior in your isolated groups.  The abused are fed up and growing angrier.  Don’t be surprised if many non-alphas team up against one alpha.  There are more of us than you, after all.

A new day is dawning for the human animal, one that may also eliminate the term “animal” from our makeup and create an entirely new species of humanoid who mankind can be even more proud of.  Just give us time, and maybe another natural catastrophe to catapult another select few of us forward.  The smarter, more cooperative ones survived before.  We will again, even if Nature becomes fed up and expresses her anger with our misuse of her bounty.

And, in the case of bullies, don’t join them if you can’t fight them.  You’ll only lose in the end.  Believe in nonaggression by not giving them anything or anyone to bully.  Go through proper channels to report the abuse.  Attention is being drawn more and more to their behavior and most don’t think its pretty.  Like neglected children they only want the attention they think they need and deserve, even if its negative attention.  You can’t change it so don’t reward it by responding.  Punish it further by continued neglect.  Force them to look inside themselves.  Only then can a soul grow and change itself.  They are destined for the perverbal mid-life crises, but are too naive to realize it.  Nor are they aware of the rule of three, or karma.  Your actions always come back to you, so make it good if you want good in your life.  It makes the bumps easier to tolerate, and ignore.

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Reblog: Laws of the (Amazon) Jungle – 8 Rules Authors Need to Know to Stay Safe

With all the bullying going on, the investigations might be starting.  Everyone is getting tired of putting up with comments vs true reviews, especially nasty ones with or without personal attacks.

This is information that even readers should know.  I wish I’d known it when I was only reading and not yet an author.  I would have posted more positive reviews and voted for the good ones and against the obvious troll ones.  But understanding the system is only the beginning.

There is good advice here, with helpful links.  I found it through my review of StoptheGoodreadsBullies site from a Tweet I received.  So, word is getting around.  Next is awareness for more in the business and the general public.

Bullies are not our kind of people and I keep hoping that search for another planet is just to find a place where they can be relocated and turn on each other.  That would be fair.

Addendum:  Just found this on Twitter about how Amazon was founded.

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Sharing Others’ Experiences #5

I wasn’t planning to add another, but five rounds this out nicely.  This is from my LinkedIn site and is a story a little different, but just as disturbing, because Amazon is involved.

For those of you who aren’t part of the Facebook bullied author support page I will reiterate my experience with Amazon first.

I got a email from them that the two 1-star reviews posted on one of my books would be removed.  This was after I requested an investigation of fake reviews.  When the second 1-star appeared and I was the first to vote “No” that it wasn’t helpful, I got a drop down box.  It asked why I voted “No.”  I assumed this was evidence of Amazon’s investigation as I requested.  Of course, I marked the top choice that stated something like “It appears to be a fake review.” Shortly after I received the email stating both reviews would be removed.

In the interim the books were separated along with the reviews listed, so I asked for a call.  With a minute my phone rang and it turned out the investigators had separated them, but failed to put them back together.  It was fixed, but I did speak to the customer service rep, who sounded like a mature man whose voice could be executive, but who really knows.  I mentioned about the removal of the 1-star reviews and he confirmed they would be within the 3-5 days my email stated.

Five days later I queried if these reviews would be removed that day since it had taken so long.  I made the reply to the email stating the removals would occur.  Well, that email disappeared from all my folders, and the response was they would not be removed because they fit within their guidelines, to which they gave me a link.  My response was to call them liars and hackers and informed them the information would be shared among other bullied authors fighting for a voice.  Yet another email arrived, yesterday, reiterating the reviews did not violate their guidelines and, again, the link.  My response was similar to the first, adding that it appeared a fact they were liars and hackers and we should just all move on.

I hope that is the end of my bad experience with Amazon because I am only at a point, with several books, that a couple are selling each month, and a couple of Kindles also.  The’s about $20 per month for me.  Not a fortune, but with limited SS income every little bit helps.

Now to share a disabled person’s experience:

— How does it feel to be bullied? Indie author Eldon Sarte can probably tell you. It seems there are two bullies trying to have their way with him right now — a bestselling author Sarte calls “The Princess Bully” and the giant itself. And, of course, Sarte claims he’s done nothing wrong.

To read the original go here.  bully-smiley-300x300

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Conspiracies Theories and Petitions

I found out today what a liar Amazon is.

I got an email, after an investigation I requested of a fake 1-star review, that said both the 1-star reviews would be removed in 3-5 days.  On the 5th day I replied through that email asking why they hadn’t yet been removed.  I not only got a response that said they wouldn’t be removed, but the email saying they would be disappeared from my email cache.

It’s not in Sent, or Trash and the one I kept in the In box is also missing.  Amazon actually deleted my email from them that they didn’t want seen.  Who would have thought they would do that?

Well, they got a nasty reply from me and I promised to spread the word among all the harassed authors in the FB support group about what liars they are and how they can’t be trusted.  I doubt they care what I think, or any of those who have been harassed.  Why?  Because of the article I’m attaching a link to which tells how “government” (and I have no doubt, big companies they are in bed with) are skewing our views by paying the Nasties to write crap.  It’s a way of keeping the “action” going, and that’s what’s counted.  Not the actual reviews or yes/no votes on the reviews.

The response I got from Amazon encouraged me to vote, but they had already informed me they don’t count double votes, so voting again won’t matter.  They encouraged me to make a comment.  HA!  That’s what instigates the trolls to get those threads of negative support comments going, and I have no doubt they know this.  They won’t get any comment from me.

Read the article to be informed.  Then read the second one about signing the petition.

There are so many petitions going around now on all matters that the government is ignoring that I only foresee a physical uprising — a true revolution — will stop it.  I also think that is what the government wants.  They are the #1 Trolls.

If you have a concern of any kind, or a complaint, then start with this information.  It could help you understand the root of our current problems in the U.S.  And, just so you are aware, Trolling is big in the U.K. and a lot of them I’ve seen are from there.  Hmmm.

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Sharing Others’ Experiences #4 ~ Death

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After a long and public struggle with depression, television personality Charlotte Dawson is found dead on Saturday at her Woolloomooloo home.

This is the subtext under the video.  Sorry I can’t seem to get it for you here.  It can be found at the site of the article.   Click on the picture.

Just when I thought Twitter might be a safe site I found this.  

I have gotten email notices of twitter postings where I am mentioned, but when I’ve tried to go to them I get the message that the account has been suspended.

I don’t know it that’s Twitter’s doing, or if it was a sock puppet account that was created for the purpose of an attack, and then deleted.  I got one just this morning.  I have no idea what was posted.

I’m sharing these things because I want nice folks to be aware, and prepared.  And I don’t think suicide ever solves anything except allow a suffering person to stop suffering.  Be sure you get your perspective right about these attacks.  Remember it’s attention they want, even negative attention, just like neglected children who will act out then endure the negative attention to get any attention at all.  In psychological it it said there is no such thing as a family that is not dysfunctional in some way.  Most of us survive it and turn out just fine.  We all have a choice, even those with deep hurtful scars that make them so angry that want to take it out on those they perceive as not suffering enough.  It’s a mental and emotional illness, no doubt.

We not only have to find a way to catch and punish these nasties, but we also have to find a way to improve parenting skills so not so many are developed into such degenerate characters.  This brings into account other social/political debates.  Everything is connected.

Addendum:  This tells more.

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Sharing Others’ Experiences #3 ~ About GRs

I originally had this as a draft dated September 2013 on my Blogspot site.  I was reluctant to post it there because I’d found the link on my stats page that lead back to the “Goodreads’ Secret Group” or whatever the exact title was.  I’ve forgotten.  When I found it I knew all they did was aimed at me personally.  This secret group cover page was of an ugly man with a sinister laughing face stretching his arm toward the camera to emphasize his obscene gesture.

The connection did lead me to its managers, as I investigated further, one of which quickly disappeared.  But the link disappeared.  I’m sorry I couldn’t save it first.

This may be an “old” post, but not that old.  It’s still relevant to what I experienced in the past week.  I only think it has slowed for me because I’ve kept digging and watching.  I changed my Goodreads and Amazon page write-ups, being told I was brave.  I’ve reported to GR on numerous items.  The mess up with my covers and titles is straightened out. One no-star review had a lot of its irrelivant content removed, though a small part was added as a comment.  And I discovered a private no-star that I reported…very interesting item to find.

Anyway, be awaken by Nathan’s comments, observations and advise.  It’s a good recounting of the everyday world for authors on Goodreads.  His is also a very good site for other great connections for authors.

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Sharing Others’ Experiences (1)

Troll La La La La Laaaaaa

Short and sweet, and you will enjoy.  Support her, also.  Let’s wider the net…web…trap…whatever.


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